BALLSTON SPA -- Dru Ture sat in a Saratoga County courtroom on Thursday and chronicled the ways her life has changed since her 21-year-old son attacked her with a pair of knives on Sept. 22, leaving her near death.
Migraines, panic attacks, anxiety, flashbacks and a scar along her neck, she said, serve as constant reminders of the early-morning attack at the home the family shared in Saratoga Springs.
Despite the pain, Ture said, she has forgiven her son, Nicholas, and would "never give up hope for him."
Her son, whom she remembered as a blond-haired, blue-eyed child who enjoyed skateboarding and sketching, has suffered from schizophrenia for years but never received the treatment he needed to get stable, she said.
If he had, Dru Ture said, the outburst that left her fighting for her life may well have been avoided.
"My heartache is that his illness took him to this place and away from his family," she said, reading a statement before Judge Jerry Scarano during the sentencing hearing.
The emotional appeal did little to change the cases' outcome.
Nicholas Ture, who pleaded guilty in April to charges of attempted murder and assault, was sentenced to 15 years in state prison and was quickly ushered out of the courtroom in handcuffs.
Scarano said fears that Nicholas Ture may try to hurt his mom again, along with a history of drug and alcohol abuse, were the reasons for the sentence.
Prosecutors also said a mental health evaluation showed he was fit to stand trial, and that no psychiatric defense was presented.
Family members who supported Nicholas were also content with the sentence and hoped it would allow both them and their son to heal, they said.
"The family loves him very much, but they're also very afraid of him, and that's what ultimately prevailed," Saratoga County District Attorney Jim Murphy said. "I think everyone needed this time to rest and recover."
The Department of Correctional Services, he added, will evaluate Ture and likely assign him some form of psychiatric care.
Nicholas Ture, though, was less pleased with the outcome.
He called the 15-year sentence "ridiculous," pleaded for a "second chance" and maintained he never intended to harm his mother.
"I realize what I have done is terrible, and believe me when I say I am sorry," he said.
On the day of the attack - shortly after being released from a 20-day stay in prison on a violation of probation charge - he said he blacked out and could not remember the incident.
If put on medication, though, Ture said he though he could again live in society.
"I'm a good kid from a good family, and I'm very scared of going to prison," he said.